Sunday, September 26, 2010

Out of the Woods

I will always think of the summer of 2010 as the Lost Summer.

I don't say that glibly, as if time just "got away" -- which it did, only that's not why it was lost. I think, perhaps, I was the one who was lost; when all your old standby survival techniques fail you, that's a pretty good indication of being lost.

Looking back now, I think I more fully understand the nature of depression and how easily it can become a way of life. I mean I didn't realize I was lost until I was most thoroughly in the middle of a dense, dark forest, afraid to take another step.

I'm not going to elaborate on the circumstances, since it really is not my story to tell. But it's best I was not communicating during the summer because I probably would have said something I'd be regretting right now.

I relate this because I went to download some photos of the farm where I work from the camera and on it were photos from May and June of a family gathering and of Dark Garden's twin's graduation. It had been that long since there was anything to photograph around here; that long since we all got together for something other than "helping Sisiggy hold it together."

We do, on occasion, take normal family photos

And so here I emerge at the end of September and find Blogland pretty much desolate. Seems no one wants to read anything longer than a Facebook entry. I would probably agree when referring to entries -- such as this one -- totally self-absorbed and self-serving.

I will continue nonetheless, if only for myself; for the same reason I still use a metal drip coffee pot and prefer to write with a fountain pen. If there is anyone left of those who used to read Linguini, you might find me slightly changed -- the forest was rather brutal -- but I'm really just the same old Sisiggy with the same old quirky family.
...same old quirky Heir 2

I like to think I kept the best part of myself and left the rest back in that forest...

I don't know why this photo cracks me up...

8 comments:

ari_1965 said...

Glad you're back.

jagosaurus said...

I'm also glad you're back.

Sisiggy said...

Thanks guys. It's good to be able to figure out something to write about that isn't just whining!

Gwynne said...

I'm glad to see you back, sorry to hear it's been so rough. I assumed you were "just" busy with the farm. Sometimes it takes being lost to figure out where you're going. Take care of yourself!

Darkgarden said...

Thanks... You did it for the first time on here.

I wept...Seriously.

Darkgarden said...

Oh... the last photo...
Totally a 60's album cover.

Trasherati said...

Sisiggy, glad you're back. I'd been checking fairly frequently, so was thrilled to check in today and have several missives from you to catch up with...missed you.
This photo looks like a Mafia family at a very awkward reunion.

Darkgarden said...

Why did I JUST NOW get it?!!! It's Charlie!!! ROFLMAO!!!!!!! He puts the finishing touch on the pic of the entire bunch of characters!